After discovering her partner is having an affair, poet Camonghne Felix sinks into a deep depression. She spirals in her devastation and loses herself to memories of childhood traumas, finally examining the scars they left. In her debut memoir, Felix unpacks that pain and reckons with it, drawing connections between her mental health and her relationships with others. She describes how she received a bipolar II diagnosis as an adult, and started taking medication for the first time. And she uses her childhood diagnosis of dyscalculia, a kind of math dyslexia, to better understand the miscalculations she has made in her love life. Her prose is lyrical, shattered, and visceral. Felix doesn’t shy away from darkness, but instead embraces it as she works to reemerge transformed on the other side of her depression. —Meg Zukin

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